Coming Home to Myself

By Vickie Dodd

The 50s were my juiciest time… and often are for many women.
Our children, if we had them are grown or close to being so
We have been through or closing in on menopause.
We no longer are concerned about getting pregnant.
For many it is the first time for truly enjoying sex…
And knowing and saying what we need, want and desire!
This may not be your story... but try to find yours in here...
Mainly it is the time where one really starts being a Woman.
Having a voice without needing to scream it.
Being heard because you have plenty of experience.

This is the time to go deep inside yourself.
What do you desire?
What is your plan?
Is this what and how I want to continue?
Now I am certain... that I may not be immortal!
And maybe I need to get clear with what and how to I want
My next 10-20-30 years to be?

One piece that becomes important...
Is where am I spiritually?
How connected am I to that which I call Source.
I now find myself with more time…
Or I will have if I am in my 60’s,
And if I am in my 70’s... I must take the time!
There is no other time...
No one needs me more than I need me.
I need this time to get real with me.

That is what these days, this time in our life is devoted to.
Let me really become willing to connect with my Soul.
What is my Soul’s desire?
I may know my partner’s desire...
I may know my parent’s desires…
My cultures beliefs,
My political correctness beliefs…
My spiritual correctness beliefs…
But what are mine?
I get to have my own connection.
I get to shape myself to receive unconditional love for this woman, me.
I get to practice receiving love for all she is and all she has experienced...
Real or imagined.

This is not just a good idea...
This is my life.
No one else can do this.
And this is my hunger.
Please let me be willing to receive me as I am.
As I am received that which needs to be re-arranged,
changed, dis-carded, added on,
Will take place as there is this infinite wisdom inside of me.
Come home to my wisdom.
Come home to myself.
Come home now is the time.
Welcome myself home.

Vickie Dodd, Director of SoundBody Productions, is an internationally known pioneer in the field of sound as bodywork. She is an Aston-Patterning teacher, author, poet, nutritionist, herbalist, workshop leader, and musician. She started using sound as a healing modality in her work with her clients nearly 50 years ago, and has trained with many masterful teachers in the art of body therapies and spiritual purification tools.

Vickie has added serious study and exploration into the curative aspects of sound, color, and movement. She designed a system which integrates emotional memories within the physical body and facilitates the release of long-held emotional distress. She's consulted with organizations and professional groups, assisting them to address specific issues they encounter in their work and life responsibilities.

Vickie has organized workshops, conferences, and residential trainings for several decades. She's a performer of Sacred Sound, has toured with Joe Fonda's jazz group in Europe and the U.S., and has recorded with avant-gard jazz great Anthony Braxton. She's had the priviledge of working with many fine musicians.

She's the author of Tuning The Blues To Gold: Soundprints, and has several recordings available. She lives in Port Angeles, Washington, and teaches in Europe, South America, and many locations around the U.S.

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This article appears in: 2020 Catalyst, Issue 14: Resilience & Renewal in Your Third Act Summit